A Breath or Two

"I'm tired of putting one foot in front of the other,

I'm weary of where it leads me to.

I'm tired of moving on from my Father.

Make me rest my head and take a breath or two."

If there is one thing I know, it is that trying to do anything in your own strength is exhausting. God created us each to react to circumstances differently...some instinctively take charge when there is indecision, others sit back and wait until the decision is made and then they jump on board, and still others just follow the group aimlessly. I think I am kind of in between the first two...I like to make decisions when no one else will, but I would rather someone else take the lead and then I work wholeheartedly toward that goal.

However, in my own life, I tend to plan everything compulsively and then worry that it won't work out the way I have strategized. Thus, the exhaustion. In the past year or so, the Lord has really been teaching me that His ways are higher than my ways...so much higher that I can never comprehend it. He has shown me that I do not have to work so hard planning what the coming days, weeks, months, and years will hold...all of my days were written in His book before one of them came to be. And anything He has in store for me blows my ideas out of the water...let's say the potential involved in His plans is the size of the Atlantic Ocean...mine would be like turning on the faucet in the kitchen.

The best thing we can do is to submit to God and get out of the way. I have experienced nothing more rewarding than letting the Lord lead me, knowing that what I can accomplish through Him and for Him is infinitely greater than what I could ever do on my own. And sometimes (actually quite frequently) the Lord works in mysterious ways...He uses certain people and situations to grow us in ways that we didn't know we needed to grow...He leads us in a path that seems to take us around our elbow to get to our knee. But, He is sovereign and He knows exactly what He is doing...we just need to trust.

"The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?" --Proverbs 20:24