Just as a warning...there is no telling what my fingers are going to type in this post. It quite possibly could be the worst organized writing you have ever read. Just so you're aware...you're not crazy if you have no idea what I'm talking about...God knows.
When people ask me how school is going, I usually want to say "Do you really want to know?" As the days pass by, being here becomes more and more stressful and burdensome...if I'm just being honest. The LORD is making me so aware of the things that He thinks and feels about different situations that it's more than overwhelming. This begs the question "What is my true purpose for being here right now?" The answer has many, many parts. First, I am where I am in order to serve: God first, and then others. Second, I am where I am so that God can teach me all of the things that I need to learn right now and apply throughout the rest of my life. Third, I am where I am to be in a community of believers who push me and inspire me to want to know the LORD more deeply every day. Fourth, I'm here to be uncomfortable...every moment that I am here increases the burning within me to go...like Isaiah 6:8.
But you know what? All that matters is bringing glory to our Father, the LORD Jesus Christ. That is what I am ultimately here (and wherever He sends me) for. So above all, I have to keep my eyes on the prize...the Author and Perfecter of our faith, who, for the joy set before Him, endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now He is sitting at the Right Hand of the Father. Praise His Holy Name! His is the Name by which we are saved. There is no one else for me...none but Jesus. The second I lose sight of that, this life becomes all about me. May it never be! That is the absolute worst thing that can happen. Because everything would fall apart...literally. That is when it seems like life is spinning out of control: when pride takes over. He is my hope in the day of disaster. He even comes to my rescue when I have rebelled and tried to follow my own path. Amazing Love. Oh to Grace how great a debtor daily I'm constrained to be...
You are good.
You are good.
And Your love endures.
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